Ms. Black & Wild told me a couple of nights ago that she wants to dominate me. I’m kind of tempted to let her. I think she’d be good at it and it’s been a long time since I was dominated properly. I still want to find my own submissive though. I’m greedy because I want the best of both worlds, lol. She has a few more fantasies I’m interested in making real. I don’t know if it’s going to happen because she’s starting to annoy the fuck out of me.
How come almost every damn time I want to fuck her she wants to turn it into a damn event?! Last night Ms. Black & Wild asked me if I minded being seen with her in public. Oh god not this again! She has this habit of asking me thought provoking and some out of the way questions when I’m not the least bit in the mood for them. She always wants me to take her out and then when I ask her where she wants to go or what she wants to do she has no answers. I don’t think it’s being unreasonable for her to plan the date since she obviously wants it more than I do. Hell, I’ll even pay. Does she ever plan it out? Generally, nope! Truth of the matter is sometimes I feel like she’s trying to force me into a romantic relationship. I’m attracted to her. I like her. I even love her but at the end of the day I’m not in love with her.
Ms. Black & Wild tells me that she wants me. I tell her that I feel the same. Now she tries to bait me by saying, “So, when are you going to come over and let me take care of you?” Shit, whenever you invite me and give me a time and a date, lol. I’d like to think that my dog sensed the danger I was in and began howling when she heard what I would soon realize. The trap had been sprung. Ms. B&W then starts talking about wanting to spend the whole day with me. Fuck! Why can’t we just fuck and bounce sometimes? She always wants to spend the day “hanging out” as she likes to call it. She told me she wanted to go to the movies, go out to dinner, chill out on the riverfront, and a bunch of other shit like she had a mental list. Why does fucking have to be an event for her? I don’t know what the problem is. Maybe I feel like I’m being manipulated or forced into romantic situations with her when I don’t feel for her in a romantic way. Maybe it’s just me being antisocial. I’ve been very conscious about not leading her on and trying to play her. Hell, I pretty much told her yesterday that the only thing on my mind was ending my celibacy and getting some pussy. I think I actually may have said something along the lines of head, pussy, and ass to be exact. I told her I wanted her to be the one to do it but if for whatever reason it wasn’t likely to happen in the near future that I would explore other options. Yeah, that probably sounded arrogant. My mom says it’s a Deaky family trait in the males on the paternal side of my family. That and the smirk we all seem to have. I’m arrogant. I admit it freely, but I didn’t say that to her to be arrogant. I just wanted to make sure she knew how serious I am about this and hopefully take some of the shine off of her romance fantasy.
I know she doesn’t get me because she said she found me unpredictable and difficult to read. I think part of her likes that although I’m very aware that it can be frustrating at times too. I guess the thing that irks me is the whole conditional thing. She claims she knows the deal then she starts acting brand spanking new. She’s cool. I like being around her even when sex isn’t in the question. I wouldn’t mind taking her out sometime (minus some of that romantic shit she’s talking) and having the night end with me walking her up to her door and going home without sex. Seriously. The thing is right now, I just want some sex. No quid pro quo, no strings, and no happily ever after this was the perfect end to a perfect night type shit.
Right now I’m feeling the lyrics Ice-T said back in the day in his song L.G.B.N.A.F.
Tonight, I wanna make this real clear, dear
I’ve no time to whisper in your ear
No time to remove our fears
I just wanna get near
Get butt naked and roll around
Move our bodies like up and down
Do that stuff that your mama call smut!
Girl, Let’s Get Butt Naked And Fuck!
Looks like I’ll be going the one night stand route on this one if Ms. Black & Wild keeps trying to get me to play the boyfriend role. I just don’t have the desire, time, or patience to play her game. If that makes me bad then so be it. I have no problem whatsoever owning it.