Can I get a little…

Ever since the breakup I’ve been feeling some kind of way.  How can I say this?  When it comes to the opposite sex I feel like the boy who has to tie a steak around his neck to get dogs to play with him.  Okay, it might not be quite that bad but my mojo has definitely stalled, assuming it hasn’t abandoned me like…[insert name of pretty much anyone and you have a good chance of being correct].   I miss the attention and affection I got when I was in a relationship.  Maybe I’m in some sort of emotional shock from the switch of getting a lot of attention and affection to pretty much none at all.  It sucks donkey balls, hot sweaty donkey balls.  I’m kind of mad at myself that I didn’t better and sooner plan contingencies for this huge, gaping void.  The person most likely to fill that void is going through some stuff and based on our past I’m not sure I should even depend on her for that even if she wasn’t going through some stuff.

The worst part is that there’s no one I can really ask to fill that need for me.  First, everyone else either falls into the inappropriate or the emotionally unavailable categories.  Yeah, I’m mad at myself for letting that happen in the first place but you live and learn, right?  Second, I don’t think you can (let alone should even have to) ask someone to meet that need for you.  Seems to me if someone wanted to do those things then they would and asking someone to is sort of like fishing for compliments.  Do I want it?  Damn sure I do!  But part of me feels that if I have to ask you for it then I’m not deserving of it because if I were you’d give it to me freely and frequently.  It’s a vicious circle.   Not to mention that most women I know send out so many mixed signals I’d feel like a damn fool for even considering letting down my guard.  You show your feelings and chicks act like you have lady parts and when you don’t they act like you’re some kind of robot or monster.   So, I’m weak if I tell you what I need and want and I resent you and hurt myself if I don’t?  Damned if I do and damned if I don’t.  Where’s my solace?

I just want some affection, attention, and some compliments.  If you want to throw in some head, pussy, or ass too then even better but for the moment I’m okay with the first three.

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