Considering how big Canada is and how scarcely populated the country is how come they need to ship their garbage here? Is there any reason why they can’t build some regional dump(s) somewhere out in the middle of nowhere?
Is there any such thing as a liberal Republican? How about a publicly known atheist or agnostic politician?
Why do some people act like I’m so out there? I find most people I come across or meet to be rather homogeneous and kind of predictable to be honest. I’ll admit that sometimes even I don’t know what I’m going to say or do until I’m put in a situation. Sometimes I wonder if I’m really that difficult to read and understand or are most people just too lazy, stupid, and nonintuitive to understand the clues I’ve given them? I could write an everything you will ever need to know about me manual and I still don’t think some people would have a clue. I feel like a fucking alien at times. Is being loved and understood asking too much or what?
In all seriousness, no matter what any of you think or believe there is a part of me that honestly believes and sees me as sweet and innocent.
I need to name more of the voices in my head.
Why do women always assume that a man is insecure if his woman’s flirting bothers him? It could be said that a woman who needs attention and/or validation from a bunch of niggas she doesn’t know (and supposedly doesn’t even care about) to feel attractive or good about herself is truly the insecure one. But what the fuck do I know, I’m just a male. Some of you act like hot in the ass hoes but we have the problem. Fuck you. Your style of “flirting” could be inappropriate but if I’m secure enough to open myself up and communicate to you that your flirting bothers me, hurts me, makes me feel disrespected, or whatever then I’m insecure or worse yet controlling. Can I have something to drink with that pabulum you’re trying to feed me? If you can flirt without sharing any intimacy, physical contact, acting inappropriately, or disrespectful more power to you. The problem is that most of you complaining about this don’t or can’t do that and are oblivious, insensitive, or otherwise in denial to the part you play. If you can’t do it in my face without it being disrespctful then chances are I’m still going to find it disrespectful when you do it behind my back. Would it be any different for you? Again, what do I know I’m just a man.
I have a headache.
I feel empty inside.
Part of me wants to reach out to anyone or anything that will make the emptiness go away even if it’s just for a little while. Part of me wants to be able to retreat into myself like I could when I was a child and just block out the world and everyone in it…forever. I miss having that ability. Days like this make me wish I was more of a drinker. Well, I suppose it’s never too late to start and become one.
I feel like playing with my gun.
I wonder if Blogger Beta is ready for prime time yet? Not that I plan to use it very long. I’m pretty sure I want to use WordPress on a hosted site. So far I’m thinking of using Go Daddy (http://www NULL.godaddy NULL.com/), DreamHost (http://www NULL.dreamhost NULL.com/), or 1and1 (http://www NULL.1and1 NULL.com/). If anyone knows anything about any of those hosts or have other recommendations then I welcome your opinions, warnings, and experiences about any or all of them. For the moment I just want to use it to host my blog, maybe in the future I might want to do a family website or something. Also if anyone knows anything about registering domain names and has any advice or info then please hit me up too. I hope to start 2007 off with my blog somewhere other than Blogger. So I guess I finally need to start doing some research.
I don’t like being the first person to comment on some people’s blogs.
I need to do laundry.
I wish something good was playing at the movies.
Finally started listening to Justin Timberlake’s CD. So far I’m not feeling it. Besides me hating chicks who use the phrase, “I’m bringing sexy back”, check out the end of this post (http://freakytopia NULL.net/2006/10/06/fuck-it-friday-12/) to see why, I’m soooo not feeling the music I’ve heard so far. I don’t know how to describe it but that whole electronicy sounding music just irks the fuck out of me.
We need to take a family portrait before the holidays. If I start bugging them now then maybe it’ll actually happen before then. Then again I don’t even know if I should bother.
I want to go to the cider mill. We used to go there as kids and I remember looking forward to it every fall. I’ve been thinking about going there every year for some time now but I never seem to get there. Freshly made apple cider and hot cinnamon donuts sound great. Of course, I was recently reminded of all of the bees that like to make pests of themselves at the mill so I don’t know.
Sunday the heavy footed asshole upstairs woke me from a sound sleep stomping around at 5:45 am. I tried to stay half asleep while finding something to throw at the ceiling to tell the inconsiderate and socially retarder bastard to sit the fuck down! I almost woke up completely but somehow I managed to go back to sleep. On Monday this dumbass starts walking around at about 4:30 am. Do you know how badly I want to drive metal stakes through his feet or do an Annie Wilkes (Kathy Bates’ character from Misery) and break shatter his ankles?
The assholes handling me student loans are stomping on my last fucking nerve. Why do those numbnuts keep acting like they’re not receiving my mail. I even faxed those bastards and I still haven’t heard shit from them. It should not take two months for them to send me what I need.
I was playing around with Paint Shop Pro last night finally figuring out how to do things I would’ve known two years ago if I had actually read the damn manual. Problem is the manual is about as thick as some textbooks I’ve had and I just didn’t feel like being bothered with it. I also think that I’m bright enough not to have to be bothered to read manuals unless it’s for a new toy that I’m just enamored with. Maybe over the weekend I’ll look around for an upgrade of it. Now, I just have to decide where if anyplace do I want to put my new pics up at. I joked with someone that I was going to break one of my Blogger dictums and actually post pictures of me on Blogger. Of course this would only occur for exactly 11 minutes and 30 seconds and very late at night. Gotta love knowing the traffic pattern of my blog. LOL!
I can’t believe Zora actually used that fictitious name I made up for yesterday’s post as a nickname. If I hadn’t checked her page earlier then I would’ve missed the first name she gave me. Oh yeah, I saw it and you can never, ever take it back. LOL!
Flavor of love this week was pretty good. I don’t if it’s just how they edited the show but New York was straight up channeling her mom. Besides that nice little body and letting Flav hit she wasn’t displaying too many redeeming qualities. I’m glad Delishis won. It also sets up the Flavorette of Love or whatever it is VH-1 ultimately decides to call New York’s spin-off show. Anyone notice how they actually gave away who the winner was during the show? They did. If you watch the show with closed captioning on about 64 minutes into the show, when they did the teaser with Flav picking the winner, it revealed the winner. If you were just watching tv without the captions Flav said, “Your time is up” and then went to commercial. If you were watching with the captions the caption said, “Your time is up New York.”
Flav and New York had a straight up meltdown. They were fighting like scorned lovers. I had to rewind and pause my TiVo when New York lifted up her dress and showed Flav her ass. Those were some cute panties babygirl had on. I wonder if they show all the nudity and stuff on the dvds. If they do I’ll buy it, if not then I’m straight.
The cider mill is cool. I would’ve thought they were all over the country but I guess not. One of these years I’ll have someone to take with me.
Depending on how good the hug is I might be willing to let you steal some of my heat. 😉
Cider Mill? That sounds interesting…I guess it is something I have missed out on since I grew up in the south. 🙂
I don’t know if I can hug without stealing some of your heat. But we can try.
The gun is still resting where I keep it.
I’ve never really thought about it before but the more I think about it the truer it rings for me.
Nothing besides the fact that if you want something often times it’s because you don’t already have it. 🙁
Please…step away…from the gun.
I’ve learned that the person who labels another person as insecure is normally the one with the insecurities.
It’s nothing wrong with wanting to be loved…
@ DeepNThought – Send the strippers now. 😉
@ TJeanise – I like hugs, just don’t be trying to steal any of my warmth. LOL!
Some things you say really make me wish I could give you the biggest tightest hug I can muster. Feel me?
Hey, part of me is just thinking in the future. I love cake.
When you want the strippers? lol
@ TrinaBeingTrina – I really liked New York until we got yet another dose of her evil bitch mama, pussy ass daddy, and New York started channeling mom and acting even more over the top than normal.
I’ll be generally surprised if Flav and Delishis are together by the end of the year but stranger things have happened I suppose.
@ DeepNThought – Thank you. Um when can I expect that van load of strippers? LOL.
Whoa, can she be my woman first, followed by a respectable period of engagement, before I’m marched down the aisle. LOL! I might know someone there that can get you some cake. 😉
Okay, for the record, I think you are the nicest sweetest mean person in freakytopia. Now, I cosign with Ladynay, BB, and everyone else. If you like, I can get a van load of strippers to go with you too the mill. LOL. I like to go to certain places in a group too. If I had said it once I have said it a thousand times, the person for you is coming. She is just working her kinks out. And when she does, I want to get some cake from your reception.
I’m happy Delishis won because she actually makes Flava look like something when she is with him. When he is with New York they look like two burnt out geezers!
@ DiamondsR4Eva – Photoshop is more detailed and complicated from what I’ve heard.
@ Zora – I enjoyed taking your bloginity so much I made you my Blogger baby’s mama. LOL!
I’ll have to look at your blog more closely from now on. I only noticed one name a couple of days ago and the other pretty recently. 🙁
I’ll live. Hopefully, the emptiness will go away one of these days or I’ll stop caring about it. Either way it can’t happen soon enough for me.
I’m a meanie! That’s my story and I’m sticking to it. 🙂 I do have an innocent side. Thanks, I guess.
@ ShereeJoi – I hope you find a good and honest guy you like.
You didn’t occur to me as the type of parent that wouldn’t have lots of pictures of her kid. I’ve actually known some parents who didn’t even have enough pics of their kids to fill up one of the thinner photo albums. Kind of sad. Hope you and your son have a blast striking a pose.
I feel better thank you 🙂 But what would make the feeling go away is people being honest with me and not lying about stupid ass shit, I don’t understand why people can’t just keep it real.
I do have alot of pictures of my son, I’m just overdue as far as a professional portrait.
oh, and i forgot to say this the 1st time, but i completely believe that you’re a sweet guy. (try as you might to hide it sometimes! :-))
innocent, though? eh, not so much…
my blog is obviously not one you feel uncomfortable being 1st on! then again, since you took my bloginity, it doesn’t really matter.
i was wondering when you would notice the other nickname i had for you. it’d been there for at least a week.
i’m sorry you feel so empty and sad. and i co-sign w/ the others; no gun play, loaded or not.
yes, flirting with other men (or women) when you’re in a monogamous relationship isn’t fair or right. i do think that there are some truly insecure men who see the slightest act as flirting, when in reality, it’s nothing. however, you weren’t referring to them or situations like that.
Is Paintshop better than Photoshop, or about the same?
I’m sorry you feel that way. What do you think would make that feeling go away?
If you do have a drink then knock one back for me. 😉
It’s just certain blogs I won’t comment first on. I don’t really know why. Sometimes, I can’t think of anything to say. Sometimes, the first comment sets the tone for the rest of the comments and I don’t want to kill their comments. It’s just hard to explain. I guess it comes down to me not feeling comfortable or feeling like I have nothing to contribute.
Are you trying to say that you don’t have photo album on top of photo album full of your son’s pictures? I think everyone should have some pictures taken by a professional photographer sometime.
I agree.
I feel empty inside too 🙁
I feel like going to have a drink or two to mellow me out 🙂
Why don’t you like being the first to comment on someone’s blog?
I think Ima take my son to get his pictures taken on his birthday he will be 4 (November 29th) because the last time he has had pictures taken he was 1.
I’m glad Delishis won too.
Flirting with somebody else while you with your significant other is straight up disrespectful to me.
I think I’m going to be the lucky one but if she feels that way too then I won’t try to convince her otherwise. 😉
There used to be a time that I wouldn’t even go to the movies by myself. I was convinced that it was a loser thing to do. Thankfully, I’ve gotten over that or I’d be waiting for everything to come out on dvd. I just want to find someone, maybe even a small group to do the cider mill thing and hopefully, distracts the bees for me. LOL!
Thank you.
Someone for you, I wish other men would state that. You hear and read woman spout that all the time. Not so much with men. It kinda makes me sad. She’s gonna be a lucky woman once she finds you babe.
The gun will be okay lonely and dusty.
I agree some places are better with company or a mob of folks along with you.
Stay warm Mr. Deaky.
They’re actually doing it. Politicians have been raising a stink (no pun intended) about it here for years now.
I’ve never heard of either type of politician but if I ever do I’d consider voting for them.
I think I happen to be pretty open for the most part. It takes me awhile to open to people with few exceptions. Once I have some level of trust, comfort, and belief that the other person’s desire to get to know me is genuine, I’m a lot more open. Although there is certain information and things I’m never going to volunteer about me. If you ask me I’ll tell but I’m just not going to give it up on my own accord just to do it. Even I do open up it still seems like they don’t know or understand me.
Thanks.
I like everything and everyone to have a place and a label. It’s how I make sense out of the chaos. Given the voices names helps define them for me.
No, I don’t think my lady friend is just a sex thing. I don’t think she can give me what I want and need to fill the emptiness inside me though. I think it would be an unmitigated disaster if she and I ever tried to take things much further than it is now. As of now I’m more or less content with her place as it is now. I just want something more, someone for me.
I haven’t even touched my gun in awhile. I think he’s lonely.
So true but it never seems like people admit or even consider what they contribute to their “situations” before bashing the other sex. Even if I don’t blog about both sides I’ve probably considered other causes and arguments or at the very least I’m open to.
Yes, I am a meanie! LOL! I’m seriously thinking of doing the pic posting thing just one of these days. I know the perfect time to do it all I have to do is figure out the perfect day. 🙂
Women seem to love his CD but based on the first three tracks, I’m not feeling it. Maybe if the music was different I could enjoy it but I honestly can’t stand that futuristic/electronicy type “noise”.
What’s keeping me from going? I guess mainly the fact that I don’t want to go by myself has been keeping me from going. Some places I just don’t want to go by myself, I guess the cider mill is one of them. It’s not fear or anything it’s just that I think some places are more fun going with someone else or in groups.
Is Canada really trying to dump their trash here?
Most likely is a politician who thinks that way.
Asking to be love and understood isn’t too much, but it’s hard to understand you when you only allow people to know but so much of you.
4 real, I think you are a sweet man from what I have read on your blog.
Why do the voices need a name? LOL
Insecurity works both ways. Disrespect is disrespect, there is no gender line.
Your lady friend can help you with the emptiness, or it’s just a sexual thing?
Leave the gun where it it please.
Teasing w/the picture posting ain’t nice meanie! LOL
Don’t say that about JT’s cd. I am going to buy it! LOL (j/k) everyone’s got their opinion, yours is the first not so good one.
I wonder if my fam is doing a portrait. Probably not.
What is keeping you from the mill?
Guns will never be prohibited in the sovereign nation of Freakytopia.
Soft sole shoes would do nothing for him. It’s like wrapping a brick with cotton batting and expecting it not to hurt when someone throttles you about the head with it.
You not flirt? So when you dial it down that’s like what going from off the chain to too much?
All the student loan people have to do is their fucking job and they won’t have to keep hearing from me. It’s their fault.
The reunion is going to be great. I’ll definitely have to Tivo it.
Guns are prohibited.
Don’t go crazy on big foot just buy him some soft sole shoes. lol
I flirt to but if I am in a relationship I like to dial it down some so I won’t come off disrespectful.
Student loan ppl are getting tired of you.
Reunion show is gonna be off the hook can’t wait
What if I don’t load it?
Once I figure out someone is actually trying to flirt with me I’ve been told I’m a big flirt. However, if I’m in a relationship or something I always try to be respectful and do my baby right. I can definitely dial down my flirting at any time if it generally makes her feel uncomfortable.
The reunion show looks like it’s going to be nothing short of a small scale riot. I need to make sure I have some hot chocolate and popcorn on Sunday and watch the drama unfold.
No gun playing!
I flirt sometimes not often but sometimes but it’s disrespectful to flirt while you are in the presence of your partner. Flirting goes no further for me but a “you looking nice in those jeans, boy”.
The reunion show for Flav of Love looked just as good as an episode.