(http://freakytopia NULL.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/03/Sperm NULL.jpg)Now that Justin Bieber is 18 and legal he’s technically too old to fuck the majority of his fans or to be fucked by pedophiles. Â They must be bummed.
Hulk Hogan has a sex tape being shopped around but still no Rihanna or Serena Williams sex tape? Â Oh giggling sweet baby Jebus how is that even remotely fair?
If I have to be subjected to one more of these follow-the-leader, sheep ass Twitter and Facebook activists cryings about Joseph Kony I’m going to grab my trench coat and a gun and start blasting people. Â Seriously, how the fuck is a hashtag or pleas to watch a depressing ass video actually going to change anything? Â It’s not!
I think I have a date for my trip to select my next hometown.  It’s finally starting to feel real, a bit overwhelming at times, but real.  Still trying to decide the itinerary which seems to change at least once a week.  Still deciding between driving or flying and renting a car.  The latter is easier and quicker but the former is cheaper.  I swear every time I think about visiting one of the places I’m considering I hear some crazy news story that makes the people seem worse than the ones here. Regardless I plan on being in a new town by this summer. Â
My sleeping has been fucked up once again. Â My mind keeps thinking about things I don’t want to think about or just won’t turn off and think about random things in general. Â My BW suggested melatonin which I’ll probably check out next time I go to the pharamacy. Â This is ridiculous. Â I need my sleep and some good sleep at that. Â Scientist need to find a way to mix pussy and tequila in a pill. Â If that doesn’t put me to sleep then nothing short of horse tranquilizers or roofies probably will.
Every time I think I don’t need to keep my guard up someone does something that makes me realize that I was grossly stupid and wrong. Â Someone did some shady shit to me recently and now I find myself questioning everything since I’ve known her. Â The fact that she doesn’t think it’s a big deal or see why I’d have a problem with it just makes me feel some kind of way. Â I’m not sure if I feel more pissed off or hurt if I had to define it. Â Nope, what bothers me the most is that she doesn’t care. Â I’ve always considered myself a good judge of character but lately I’m doubting it. Â I’m doubting a lot of things… and people.
Trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after each mistake.
I don’t get women. Â I’m stoic, cold, difficult, and aloof when I hold everything in but when I share my feelings or what I’m thinking then not only am I sensitive, I’m now oversensitive. Â Now let me state for the record that I don’t share every little feeling and thought I have. Â However, when I do share them I don’t want to feel like a fool, belittled, or otherwise regret the effort. I usually start off with little things as a test. I figure if your reactions suck with the minor stuff then it’s probably going to suck if I ever really needed a shoulder or tried to share anything serious, meaningful, and major to me. Isn’t an exchange of thoughts and feelings part of the process of getting to know someone? Â I mean if you don’t know anything about my thoughts or feelings then how on earth can you claim to know me or be my friend? Â Now with that said, I’ve met some insensitive bitches lately. Â I’m accepting of a lot of things but insensitivity, especially when it’s directed at me, is a definite dealbreaker. Seriously, I don’t even want to spend time dealing with you. You’re toxic to me.
I had a chick get mad at me because I didn’t find her sense of humor very funny. Â A lot of times I let things slide but I’ve been trying to make a more concerted effort to speak up, rather than bottling it up and letting bad feelings grow. Â I felt like she was taking some liberties with the jokes so I told her about it. Â Even I find some things offensive given the context. Â Also, I felt she hasn’t known me long enough or well enough to joke like that with me so I told her. Â I get accused of being too serious and no fun. Â She then gives me an “apology” saying, “I’m sorry you were offended by my sense of humor.” Â *sigh* Â Really?! Â You want to go there? Â First off, I hate fake apologies. Â Even as a kid, I refused to give them or accept them. Â I’m sorry you were offended by my sense of humor to me is like saying I’m sorry you didn’t get the joke. Â You blame the problem on my lack of understanding instead of the fact that I just didn’t find it appropriate or humorous. Â I’d think that anyone I’d have a conversation with would be old enough and wise enough to know how to offer a sincere apology. Â “I’m sorry I offended you, it wasn’t my intention,” is a proper apology, “I’m sorry you’re offended” is not. Â Of course, it’s possible that the apology isn’t sincere and if that’s the case you’re entitled to feel that way. Â If that’s how you feel then just shut the fuck up and don’t say anything. Â I’ll still think you’re an asshole but at least you won’t be slapping me in the face with another offence. Â She claimed she didn’t give out pseudo apologies. Â I told her she just did. Â My new standard response for sorry you feel that way will now be, “Fuck you, that fake ass apology, and the broom you flew in on, bitch!” Â As many bridges as I burn I should get discounts on gas and matches. To her credit at least she didn’t say, “Well we’ll just have to agree to disagree.” Â I hate that saying because honestly we don’t have to agree to disagree especially over some bullshit. Â People generally feel very comfortable with me sometimes too comfortable.
Had dinner with my mom and sister today. It was kind of nice, almost felt normal. My sister asked me if I was ready to move and if I’d miss the winters? I’m more than ready to move. In fact I wish I could do it sooner. As for the winters… cold without snow sucks and the snow has been seriously lacking this year. As long as it’s cool enough at night to sleep with my windows open and get a nice chill then I can make do. Not sure how I’m going to handle Christmas without snow. Sure we didn’t have any here but there’s at least a 50/50 chance. Wherever I move to the chances will much lower. *shrugs* I’ll figure out some new traditions and adapt.
I have always heard of funerals being called Homegoing. But when one of my best friends passed in December her family called it a “Celebration of Life” What the What?!?!? I don’t want a funeral also. I have told anyone who will listen. And my family is against no funeral. But my mini me says she will do it my way. Hope she is old enough to run things when I pass.
Just got back from a world wind road trip. Spent time in a couple places and saw 10 states. And gas is a killer right now. But that is nothing compared to all the other prices…. airline, hotel etc!
I have been trying different things to sleep. Some have worked some have not. Im at the point when I am like oh fukn well!
I feel you on the guard thing. Everytime I think something is different it is not! SMH Sometimes I want to throw in the towel at dealing with new people then give it another chance because I know someone out there has to be different.
Im not on Twitter much so I miss nothing! LOL
Good luck on your trip. Hope you figure it out. I’ve been thinking of relocating again. Just for something new. Who knows.
It’s new to me though I admit I never been to a funeral until my late 20s. They kept calling it a celebration when my grandfather died and that just pissed me off. The way I see it you celebrate someone’s life when they are actually alive to appreciate it. While I understand the sentiment, I call bullshit! When I die I want to be either forgotten or mourned but no damn celebration of life. It’s too late for that.
Ten states? Yeah that’s a whirlwind trip. All sorts of body parts must be tired. I didn’t think hotels were that bad but I haven’t really looked much yet. I think I’ll probably be driving.
I’m at the point where I want to try one of those prescription sleeping meds with the crazy side effects like sleep eating, sleep fucking, sleep driving, and sleep killing.
I feel you. Whoever the one is better have some patience because the more people I deal with the less I feel myself being open to the next one.
Twitter gets so boring sometimes. I have problems finding followers who talk or who I find interesting and entertaining. Lately, I’ve been in a if you don’t say anything to me then I’m not going to say anything to you kind of mood.
Thanks. It’ll get figured out soon because it has to but until then I’m kind of impatient until I have my plan of action ready. That’s going around. You won’t miss the hellish Texas heat?
Yea 10 states. Suppose to have only been 2. But decided to “explore”…..LOL
You talking about patience. Hmmmm I have the 3 strike out thing going on. SMH After the 3rd thing that pisses me off….. Im outta there. And they be like…. WHY? What did I do? LOL
I’ll just take the meds for fucking. LOL SMH
Miss Texas. Hmmmmm Not sure. I love it here. But since I am originally from Washington, DC. It is what it is. I am still getting use to it. I have friends wanting me to move to St. Louis, North Carolina, Georgia, Florida or back to Maryland. Just thinking about it…. NOthing else so far.
Texas is like four states in and of itself. I thought driving through Ohio was bad. LOL. Well, as long as you had fun.
I tell people that I will usually give them enough rope to hang themselves. Once I see you dangling then I’m done.
I was sleep fucked before. Well she woke up before we got to that point but she was asleep when she started molesting me. True story.
I’ve been through D.C. a couple of times. Didn’t get to get my shot glass (I collect them) because I literally drove through it. I liked what I saw though, well, except for the traffic that shit was atrocious. I’m considering some of the states.
I’ll get you a shot glass when I go home for easter weekend. Yeah the traffic is no joke! LOL I so do not miss it!
I sleep fuck all the time! LOL Unfortunately I sleep walk and talk etc. So I have molested and taken advantage of plenty of guys in my day. No complaints yet! LOL
Yay, thanks! So many shot glasses I haven’t gotten the chance to get yet. There was a place at Myrtle Beach that had shot glasses for pretty much every state but I couldn’t remember the name of the place last time I was there.
I didn’t complain about the sleep sex either though I have joked about pressing charges every now and then and mention that no means no. LOL. I’ve known a few sleep talkers. Sometimes it’s funny as hell listening to their “conversations” and then asking them about it the next day. Don’t think I’ve seen a sleepwalker though my mom swears one of my godsisters used to do it.
If the gas prices keep going up, driving may not be the cheapest choice. Ahh, it goes up overnight.
A Hulk Hogan sex tape. Ewww!
Yeah, I was thinking that but in the end I think it might still be cheaper to drive two, possibly three people then it would be to buy airfare for all of us and rent a car.
Ewww? Wha’cha gonna do when the Hulkster cums for you? I hope that image is now burned into your mind like those thong tan lines are burned onto his skin. LOL. My work is done.
You know, I can get with YOLO… in some cases. Lord knows that this month I’ve had that motto with my discretionary income… smh… but, yeah, when it comes to how you treat other people, YOLO isn’t the way.
yeah, it is a little pricey at drug stores CVS. I bought mine online (Vitacost), where it’s super cheap. but, i was also purchasing some other supplements and vitamins. so, the shipping cost wasn’t more than the actual cost of the product.
I think kids embrace it wrong. It’s like they use it as permission to do whatever without thinking about consequences. Which is cool if you’re willing to live with the results but it takes some maturity that I fear they don’t have.
Yeah, I looked at the prices and thought about prostituting myself for a bottle. Those cheap attacks come out of nowhere.
Oh, yeah, kids do misuse YOLO. I’ve seen some really stupid things with “YOLO” given as the reason.
Yeah, kids take it too far, shrug, and then start spouting YOLO. I just want to slap and then choke them Homer Simpson style.
ever since I was a kid, I’ve heard people of the Christian faith refer to a funeral as a homegoing. But, i hadn’t heard it used in the mainstream until after Whitney’s passing. And then suddenly calling all funerals a homegoing or homecoming became the thing to do. But, you know, for those who don’t believe in heaven or hell, it’s not appropriate to use either term. An old friend’s dad passed away several years ago and even though he didn’t want a funeral, one was held anyway. my friend was angry about it, since it didn’t follow his dad’s wishes. but, you know, funerals are really for the living, as a way to have closure.
being insensitive seems like the thing to do nowadays, especially on Twitter. Seeing people say “IDGAF” or “Get out of your feelings” all the time is wearing on me.
Melatonin is great! I was wary of it at first (thought it wouldn’t work), but it did make me sleepy and once I fall asleep, I stay asleep.
Yeah, since I don’t think I’ll exist in any form after I die I can’t say I’ll care about it then. However, while I’m alive both terms will continue to irk me and I’d still hope my wishes were followed.
And don’t forget YOLO too. *sigh* It really does seem like the thing to do. Makes me think of that saying, hurt people, hurt people. Sometimes, I really want to wait until they’re in a bad situation and then say things like “get out of your feelings”, “quit being so negative”, etc. but that would make me an asshole too, I guess.
Does it normally sell for in the $8-$10 range for a bottle? I saw some at CVS and had a cheap attack but at this rate I’ll probably end up fighting it off and giving it a try.